My spiritual battled with INFERTILITY and how I won it

What is infertility?

 In simple terms,  it is a condition where one struggles to conceive.

In my journey I also learnt that there are different stages to it:

Primary infertility -  one is diagnosed with it if there has never been any pregnancy

Secondary infertility -  is when a person has had one pregnancy.

What was the diagnosis on your case?

I was diagnosed with secondary infertility

It was discovered that I had an inverted uterus (womb) meaning  my womb was tipped backwards.

The cause of it in my case was discovered to have been a bleeding cyst on my left ovary.  

I had a minor operation done (hysteroscopy) which helped with this diagnosis and I receive treatment and it was confirmed I should be able to conceive

How does spirituality link to infertility?

Immediately after the operation I started looking for ways of helping heal my womb so I can be able to conceive. I discovered that as we are spiritual beings having a human experience, there are some other issues at play in the spirit that also cause infertility

In my case, when I had my 1st child I swore that I will never have another child because of the pain I endured during delivery. It's like I told my womb to never conceive because it was harmful to us. This resulted in this trauma being stored in my womb and because words are a powerful creating tool, I called it to be.

I was also not raised by my own mother whom at some stage felt that I was being taken away from her but I am the fruit of her womb. Because of this feeling within her, it also created some turmoil/chaos in the spirit

Lastly, as mentioned in the past article where I shared how the relationship between yourself, mother and grandmother affects your well being, it turned out that my grandmother's mother died after giving birth to her.

These are the traumas that I had stored in my womb where my womb was unconsciously preventing me from suffering. 

These are some revelations that seemed to be case with me, some of my coaching clients and those that I've shared with information with before.

What are some of things you discovered were the case with others?

Other contributing factors were/are:

Not having a great relationship with the mother, where for an example one will swear not to be like their mother and bring a child to this earth to suffer

Having had an abortion or thinking of having one

Being raped or being born from rape 

Being born after a still born child 

Mother experiencing something traumatic during her pregnancy with you

And many more

How does one begin to heal this ordeal?

Forgive your mother for whatever she did or didn't do

Forgive yourself if you uttered words that were not good towards motherhood

Seek professional help and go for diagnosis and start treatment

Cleanse yourself 

Invest in womb healing and health

I know this might sound unbelievable but it does work and all efforts put towards it are so worth it. Don't suffer in silence or even give up on yourself especially if you really want this. 

If you have battled with infertility and were able to conceive, please share with us in the comments section what helped you.

For any further assistance, connect with me via WhatsApp or email: portia@theloveacademy.coza

Much love

How your 1st period relates to everything in your life - work, love, relationships, money, etc.

 

What is this woman on about now?

Hahahahaha, I'm sure that's the question that ran through your mind as you read the title of this blog, hahahahahaha

Well, let me indulge you then

What are periods in the first place?

It's a time in a month where a woman will  naturally cleanse off her body what is no longer needed by the body for that period. This is my simplest explanation.

According to the scientific explanation it is said that it is a vaginal bleeding that happens as part of the woman's monthly cycle if no pregnancy had happened that the body had prepared for.

What has your 1st period had to do with anything?

Before I can go there, let me first explain when do a woman starts getting periods. 

There comes a stage in a girl's development that the body naturally gets to that part where  as a girl whom may at times be still a child around 10 to 12 or teenager grows to be a woman. 

And when that stage comes, it is shown by a girl getting their periods. This normally happens during  puberty. 

What this then means is that the girl child's body is capable to conceive and co-create with God, i.e make babies.

It is for that truth that most of us are told to stay away from boys when we get our 1st period. No any other education happens around it. 

In most cases when you do get the lecture (if you're lucky) it comes in the form of fear, being told of what to fear and nothing with what else does this mean about you and to you as a girl child. As a result many of us fear getting our periods early or even having them at all. 

As you can see from the little explanation shared,  you're co-creating with God at that moment. You have just been ordained with your natural super power and ability which comes with the power of multiplication that God gifted every woman with.

What needs to be happening when a girl child gets to this stage, it should be celebrated, like it used to happen back in the olden days. 

Unfortunately it is not, why? Because of FEAR.

How was your 1st period experience and how old were you?

Yesterday  I wrote on my Facebook timeline; "the day equivalent to the age you were when you first had your periods says a lot to you about yourself, your purpose and mission in this life". You should have seen the comments, hahahahahaha.

What I found interesting was that many people didn't even remember how old were they but remembered who they were with, how they felt and what was said to them. 

I'm here to share with you that it is very important to know or remember when was your 1st period and most importantly how you felt and what was happening, why?

Because that was your spiritual awakening, when you stepped into your greatness, your super natural Godness. 

How you experience your ordination to your womanhood serves as a foundation as to how you'll step into the many other areas of your life that speaks to your  growth and development.

What do I mean by this?

Let me illustrate by using a practical example:

When I first had my period I was 17. It was the most painful experience I've ever had. I thought I was actually dying. Nothing I took could make the pain go away, until some lady made a concussion for me using herbs, I could smell aloe, I could smell weed, I could smell jeyse fluid and methylated spirit in this thing and I fell into deep sleep.

Then when I gave back to my 1st child I also felt like I was dying. When I left corporate into business I felt like I was dying. Everytime there's a huge step I must take in my life that leads to great expansion and growth I freeze, feel numb as if my heart is about to stop. 

As I embarked on my healing journey I received a revelation that I must start observing what happens on the 17th of every month in my life. I have noticed that I make life changing decisions or I'm able to gain clarity or find solutions on this day. 

17 has become my lucky number. I also discovered that my late grandmother that we share so much in common with was 17 when she left home and never looked back to go start a new life outside of home for herself. 

Recently I have been officially welcomed as a makoti to the family I've been married into for 12 years already, I left home on the 17th and this was unplanned on my side but it is a date his family was most comfortable with.

What am I saying to you?

I'm saying to you, your purpose and mission of being here in this life lies on the day equivalent to the age you were when you stepped into womanhood your Godness self.

Your strengths and weaknesses lie in how you experienced your periods. What was said to you, who was with you and how you felt are all messages that gives you an idea of who you truly are.

And if you don't remember much, observe what happens around you on this day, what are people crying about or complaining about, what you are attracted to on this day. All this will give you a piece of a puzzle for your greater mission. 

That's why my advise is, journal on this day. Journal about everything, from how you are feeling, what you're observing about others and events happening around you. As you keep journaling you'll get to meet and know things about yourself that are a huge aspect of your being. 

When you start journaling on this day as well as when you are in your periods, you'll find so much about yourself that will help you with your love life, your work and/or business as well as your life purpose.

And if you are one of those people who their experiences were too painful and traumatic, here with is a link to a womb healing technique that I've also used and had great impact in my life

Remember your body stores all the emotions and experiences you go through, which is why it's important to make sure that you incorporate body movement into your daily life.

I am here to remind us women that we are more powerful than we actually phantom and it is time we step up and own our greatness. 

Should you wish to make contact with me via WhatsApp make contact here or you can make contact via email on portia@theloveacademy.co.za

I would love to hear from you, do so by living a comment below

Much love

How to fix your umsamo - Identity Alignment in 2022

What is umsamo in the first place?

 Umsamo is a Zulu word used to describe true identity alignment. It is the your blood origins. It's the foundation of your existence and well being. 

So when one is told "you need to fix umsamo or your msamo is not good", you are being told to bring back things that were not done right before you that are now affecting your life currently because whatever you're building its strength and ability to stand the test of time depends on the foundation you're building upon

Why is it that it is us people of color (blacks) that are affected by issues of umsamo?

That's exactly what I used to believe, until I learnt through my journey while I was looking for some records of information through Home Affairs and the person  I spoke to said "that's a family tree/lineage you are looking, and those are white people's things. Why are you looking for such?".

This statement made me probe even further asking what she meant, that's when I discovered that a lot of white people do contact the Home Affairs to get such information about their lineage and true identity. 

I learnt that they don't only do this because there's a problem but because they mostly  need to know where they come from which also make it easy for them to claim and fight for things that belong to them.

Since that day, I changed  my outlook into  this umsamo thing.

If you're told there's a problem with your umsamo, where do you even begin?

You begin by putting together pieces of your life as per the depicted picture. You look at similar things in your own life between yourself, mother and grandmother in the following:

Behavioral patterns, thought patterns, challenges, experiences,  rituals for birth, marriage and death, etc. 

This is a very  important step in ones life because it brings so much healing. Just being aware of it brings breakthrough

NOTE: Knowing the strengths, superpowers and breakthroughs/wins is what you'll need to help you in your journey.

Does this mean I must do all the things that were left uncorrected by everyone for me to be right?

Yes and No

Yes, because someone has got to take the responsibility and say "the bug stops with me"

No,  because everyone has a part in the puzzle, in most cases you just need to do your part which is always the case with those that are called into leadership roles within the family, and as soon as you've taken the lead, then everyone and everything else follow suite

What if I've been told too many different things by different people, must I do all that?

Simple answer is NO. Remember we are all different people with different gifts, most of the time people will tell you according to their knowing and understanding. But what needs to happen is for you to connect with your way of doing things. Connect with your heart then your soul team and you'll be directed to the way that is right for you.

What are you giving birth to in 2022?

Firstly you must remember that pain is part of giving birth.

Secondly, be reminded that you can give birth to more blessings or challenges/problems. 

The outlook  to any of these depends entirely up to how you view your situations.

Where does alignment fit in then?

Alignment is stepping into  your truth as is. Not what you wish it could be, not what you wish it wasn't but what  truly is. Because no matter how much you can wish or pray things away, you can never pray away what is within you running through your blood all over the millions of cells that make up your body.

The one thing that will help you is acceptance. Because when you accept things about yourself, you then allow yourself to get to a place of understanding the "why it happened or is happening" in the first place. 

And if any of this written here gives you heart palpitations, then you know what to do, make contact via WhatsApp here or email: portia@theloveacademy.co.za

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Much love